Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have.
My last entry talked about things you can’t have, about things you desire.
Reading it over got me thinking, and its true most of the time the things you want are those you can’t have, or maybe just fantasies you create in your head desiring that someday it will happened, The fantasy is simple. The pleasure is good, and twice as much pleasure is better. The pain is bad, and no pain is better. But the reality is different. The reality is that pain is there to tell us something, and there's only so much pleasure we can take without getting a stomach ache. And maybe that's okay. Maybe some fantasies are only supposed to live in our dreams. But when does this pain that comes from fantasying becomes so strong you can’t control it, honestly I couldn’t tell.

Nowadays I find myself fantasying about impossible relationships, maybe it’s just a recent feeling of disappointment or maybe it’s just meant to be. As most people think EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON and maybe this pain I am feeling, maybe this urge to fulfill a fantasy that seems to never be accomplished is here to tell me something, maybe it’s happening for a reason. A reason that to my own eyes can’t be obvious, but when I think outside the box I realize that in everything that happens there is a message a lesson. So this pain/discomfort that I am feeling is not because my continual fantasies, perhaps its natures way of telling me to STOP and be REAL!
As a consequence, everything does happen for a reason and this time the reason might be to finally make a closure!



Truth is, I’m still working on it!

"Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be. The people who suffer the most, are those who don't know what they want."

G.A

Comes the Dawn

After a while you learn the subtle difference betweeen holding a hand and changing a soul, You learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up, and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain. After awhile you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So you plant your own garden, and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure, you really are strong and you really do have worth. And you learn and learn. with every goodbye you learn

expresate como puedas,

elige un cantante y responde con sus canciones yo elegi
Juan Luis Guerra

1. Descríbete: tengo un corazón mutilado de esperanza y de razón, tengo un corazón que madruga donde quiera.
2. ¿Cómo te sientes? Te mando señales de humo como un fiel apache pero no comprendes el truco y se pierde en el aire
3. ¿Cómo describirías tu relación anterior? viviré en tu recuerdo como un simple aguacero de estrellitas y duendes.
4. Describe tu actual relación amorosa: Ayer te estuve buscando y no te pude ver, no, no, no...te amé de oído por primera vez me detuve en el silencio exiliado de tus besos
5. ¿Dónde quisieras estar ahora? una tarde bajo el sol primavera tu caminando entre mis pasos yo vistiendome en tus huellas
6. ¿Cómo eres con respecto al amor? vivire cada segundo pegadito de ella como medallita al cuello con el corazon en fiesta
7. ¿Cómo es tu vida? tengo un conuco de arcoiris bajo el arroyo voy a sembrarlo de caricias, trigo y verdura pa' despertarnos en una nube de levadura
8. ¿Qué pedirías si tuvieras un solo deseo? dame tu amor sin medida búscame como abeja al panal (quita la pena)y da la miel de mi vida.
9. Escribe una cita o frase famosa. Para ti no hay nada imposible, para tí para tí no hay mal ni tormenta, para tíno hay problemas, ni enfermedades, para tí para ti no hay nada imposible, para tí
10. Una despedida. Yo soy tu amiga cuando a nadie le interesas,
tan solo llamame y enseguida tocare a tu puerta.

intimacy,

Intimacy is a four syllable word for, "Here's my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy." It's both desired, and feared. Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without. Intimacy also comes attached to the three R's... relatives, romance, and roommates. There are some things you can't escape. And other things you just don't want to know.

I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you've crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don't know how you fit it on a map. You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself.