silence,never knew always wanted.

Don't you hate that?
Uncomfortable silence.
Why do we feel it's necessary to talk about bull in order to feel comfortable?
That's when you know you've found somebody really special.
When you can just shut the hell up for a minute and comfortably share a silence.

what i never knew i always wanted.-

solo un intento basta para saber que va suceder porque una mirada hablara mas que mil palabras.
y aunque lo nuestro sea imposible ..
me encanta pasar las horas junto a ti y no me importa que no te pueda ver ,te voy conociendo y eso es lo que importa ... ya que hay gente, que nunca llego a conocer aunque los pueda ver...

free hug campaign

http://www.freehugscampaign.org/
,touché**

no sera un adios*

Con cada adiós se aprende, con cada adiós se crece,
Quizás no este preparada para este adiós, quizás no es lo mió decir adiós pero,

Cuándo nos encontramos más?

Despedirme por unas horas o por más de un día es entregar total lo mejor de mí: las canciones que compone este corazón; la ilusión de que me vaya bonito; los recuerdos que invaden mis pensamientos, las palabras que alguna vez me negué a pronunciar o aquellas que quizás estuvieron demás...

Verlos de nuevo después de un instante o una eternidad será el olvido total de:
Esa nostalgia que me acompañara mientras no esten;
Las mil y una posibilidades que se me ocurrieran para sorprenderlos cuando me vieran;
todos y todo aquello que me rodea
Importa poco cuándo nos encontremos,
mientras pase la vida entera encontrándonos.


Mientras ande rondando y encontrándome,
espero que en cada pensamiento este presente y que el ajetreo y la monotonía diaria no permitan que se borren aquellos recuerdos que una vez compartí
porque de algo estoy segura y es que en mi aquellos recuerdos siempre estaran presente. intactos y tan palpables como aquel dia en que los vivi.
experiencias irrepetibles e vivido ... por eso doy gracias cada dia por ser quienes son y como son, ojala y pueda tener la dicha de conocer mas personas asi

no será un adiós.
*promesa*

thanksgiving.-*

once a year people gather around and thank things, maybe miracles maybe posessions but thank, even do i also do it every year i wish i did it every single day.
there so much to be thankful.
today is again the day they called it to be thankful and honestly my list is so long that i dont even remeber.

maybe it was all about achievement and goals i conquered or things i now own,

but just having the thought of the people that were there when i was fulfilling my wishes makes them dissapear without hessitation

those people that give me comfort when the going gets tough, those who give me a shoulder to cry on, that lift me up when i fall,that handle my ups and down,that are authenthic,that accept and apreciate.
those that know i care about
ThankYou!

this journey we called life has been amazing with each and every single one of you by my side, i wouldnt want it any other way!


to the new , the old, and the always there!

ill be forever thankful to have you by my side!

moral fiber

I think moral fiber's about finding that one thing you really care about.
That one special thing that means more to you than anything else in the world.
And when you find him, you fight for him.
You risk it all, you put him in front of everything, your life, all of it.
And maybe the stuff you do to help him isn't so clean.
You know what? It doesn't matter.
Because in your heart you know, that the juice is worth the squeeze.
That's what moral fiber's all about.

Es una locura...

Odiar a todas las rosasporque una te pinchó...

Renunciar a todos tus sueñosporque uno no se realizó...

Perder la fé en todas las oracionesporque una vez no fuiste atendido...

Desistir de todos tus esfuerzosporque uno de ellos fracasó...

Condenar a todos los amigosporque uno te traicionó...

No creer en el amorporque uno de ellos te fue infiel...

Alejar de ti todas las ocasiones de ser felizporque uno de los intentos no fue correcto....

Espero que en tu caminono cometas estas locuras

Recuerda siempre ...

Hay otra ocasión

Otra amistad

Otro amor

Una nueva fuerza

Solo hay que ser mas perseverante y procurar ser mas feliz cada dia

La gloria no consiste en no caer nunca, si no mas bien en levantarse todas las veces que sea necesario

esa sera tu vida

Cuida tus Pensamientos... porque se volverán Palabras
Cuida tus Palabras... porque se volverán Actos.
Cuida tus Actos... porque se harán Costumbre.
Cuida tus Costumbres... porque forjarán tu Carácter.
Cuida tu Carácter... porque formará tu destino
Y tu Destino será tu vida.
Anonimo.-

the.power.of.words.

There is no words to explain how blessed I am to have someone like you by my side from the bottom of my heart THANKYOU for this amazing words.
....speachleess

Meeting someone. Liking someone. Falling in love with someone. Falling out of love with someone. Letting go. Moving on. Forgetting.
It’s all part of life. Part of this bumpy journey we call life. Each one of these stages makes our lives worthwhile. Some fill our heart with great experiences that forget the best of memories. Others fill our heart with pain and deception, and even though they aren’t as full-filling as the others, they help us grow and learn, and become better persons.
The hardest part of this whole process is letting go. Trying to forget. Realizing that the one person you thought you loved the most, has let you down. I don’t know for a fact, but I firmly believe it, “no man is worth your tears, and the one who is, will NEVER make you cry”. You might say its easy for you to say, because its not you in my shoes, but its my job as your friend, to guide you from the outside, because I know, love blinds, love makes us fools. You don’t see things as I do from the outside.
I’m not telling you not to cry, on the contrary, pour your heart out. Cause it’s the only way of relieving the pain, of feeling better. Why? Because every tear is just a reminder that you don’t know how to let go. When you are done crying, you’ll be over him.
“Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear” It’s pure math.
There are many factors that in one way or other can affect your decision. First there is fear. The fear of walking away, not for the mere action of walking away, but of the fact that maybe you know that he wont come after you. And that, that hurts the most. But one has to be strong, strong to make a move, to have initiative. To let go, no matter how much it might hurt, because that action will open a window of opportunities in the future. A future that is on YOUR hand, and yours only!
Accept no excuses, no bullshit. Give no more opportunities. Because for him its really good to know that you are always there, willing to make it work, while he’s there caring about nothing. That’s just my point of view.
Another factor, Distance. Distance is just an excuse. True love, loyal hearts. They can surpass that. Distance more than an excuse is a test. A test that allows you to find out if what you have is real. More than an obstacle, distance is a great reminder of just how strong true love can be. Is your love true!? You by now, should know.
But there’s always a bright side to everything.
We hide because we want to be found, we walk away to see who will follow, we cry to see who will wipe away the tears, and we let our hearts get broken to see who will come and fix them .
YOU, you my friend, are gold. There are plenty of fish, better fish in the sea. Guys more deserving of you. Guys that will appreciate you more. Respect you more. Cherish you more. Love you more. Yes, I know, he’s the one you want, or wanted, or thought you wanted. But, let me tell you, holding on to something/someone that hasn’t done anything for you, except break your heart, brings nothing positive. It just keeps you away from the world, from meeting new people, from enjoying the great moments of life. Of meeting your true “it”. And yes, you felt with him something you’ve never felt before. But maybe it wasn’t love, I could have just been mere attraction. Cause honestly, they say love hurts, but not like that. Love hurts, but to validate the pain, it offers you other new feelings and experiences, that make it up. And I haven’t seen those new feelings and experiences in you. I never saw you with a true smile on your face. Maybe at first, but not because you really meant it, but because you couldn’t believe it was true. That finally, after all those years, your dream of being with the guy you had been waiting for all you life, the one that was somehow unattainable, was actually coming true. What you didn’t realize was that the things you both felt for each other at first, had actually faded. Once again I tell you, I’m just saying what I appreciated from the outside, maybe I’m wrong. But as a friend, I think the right thing is to let you know. It might hurt at first, but its part of the healing process.
I now make reference to something I learned from the best series ever made, our favourite, “Grey’s Anatomy”: Cut, suture, close.
That’s how we move on. So do that my dear friend. Move on. Let go. Don’t hold back. So I could finally stop hearing that BLOODY name, those BLOODY anecdotes that you incessantly tell me without taking into consideration the many times I’ve told you not to, jijijiji.
Manita… I really loooove you!! That’s why I’m telling you this, well writing actually… And I hope you come into your senses and realize that this relationship, well, from my point of view, isn’t going anywhere, and deep down I think you know it and feel it. So, it’s up to you take a decision.. My job is done..
Marua V. Bassa E.

aquel verano I

El despertó inquieto no sabia que hacer, en sus sueños la veía, en el día la recordaba; no había remedio de sacarla de su cabeza, era imposible no pensar en ella, pero tenia que hacerlo se lo había prometido aquella tarde de verano. Tomo sus cigarros papel y lápiz y se dirigió hacia el techo de su casa, ahí se sentía conforme, sentía que mirando a las estrellas miraba aquellas estrellas que una noche tocaron juntos entre besos y caricias, se puso a escribir quería narrar la historia de el mejor verano de su vida aquel verano que ni un repentino ataque de amnesia podría borrar.

Iba camino al bar cuando la vi, caminaba entre la gente, su pelo que se movía con el ritmo del viento cubría parte de su rostro pero aun así no fue razón para no poder percatarme de tremenda belleza, llego a su destino y con una voz picarona pidió uno de esos tragos tropicales que las mujeres suelen tomar en la playa. Voltio la cara me miro, o al menos eso creo no pude contener mis emociones y le sonreí al mismo tiempo en que le dije hola, creo que no me escucho, muchas cosas impedían mis palabras; música, distancia… en fin tome coraje y decidí acercarme a ella, ya ella no me miraba, cuando llegue al bar le toque los hombros y sentí su piel, sonroje. Ella voltio la cara y me miro, me pregunta: ¿te conozco ti?, titubiando le dije: no pero quisiera. Ella rió, nunca había visto algo así, era perfecta o al menos se acercaba a aquella mujer que rondaba mis sueños constantemente.
Me extendió la mano y me dijo su nombre, yo respondí.

Me dijo que tenía que regresar a su mesa, me ofrecí a acompañarla, llegamos, estaba sola. Yo rebosaba de felicidad. No lo podía creer y no solo por el hecho de que solo había una silla en su mesa, sino porque solo la acompañaba una revista, restos de un plato de comida, ipod y un celular, señales claras de una mujer sin acompañante.

Ella me invito a sentarme.
Corrí a buscar otra silla, me senté, desde el momento en que dejamos el bar ella no paraba de sonreír, no se porque, pero me encantaba, me hacia sentir en confianza, empezamos a hablar, sin darnos cuentas cayo la tarde y con ella trajo la noche. Aquella noche que ofrecía miles de oportunidades para seguir conociendo a aquella mujer que había roto mis esquemas.
Pidió disculpas, tomo sus cosas y me dijo que tenia que irse a su habitación, necesitaba arreglarse, ya era tarde, no se como pero en cuestión de segundos conseguí una servilleta y un lápiz y le escribí mi numero.

Pasaban las horas y yo solo esperaba su llamada sentado junto al teléfono. Porque diablos no traje mi teléfono móvil? quizás se le perdió el papel y anda buscándome por el hotel, quizás no le intereso. Entre pensamientos y pensamientos sonó el teléfono, era ella, lo supe al instante, mi corazón me lo decía.
Me invito a cenar, me dijo que era lo menos que podía hacer por haberle ofrecido una grata compañía esa tarde. Acepte asombrado. Nunca había conocido una mujer así, todas aquellas que había conocido antes nunca me hubiesen invitado a cenar. Pero ella, ella era diferente.
...continuara

you KNOW you are from the 90's when:

You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air".
You yearned to be part of the Baby-Sitters club.
You use to love playing with your MY Little Pet Shop
You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
You wore a ponytail on the side of your head and had scrunches
You remember reading "Goosebumps"
You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school
You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence...Not...
You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green Ranger were meant to be together.
You collected pokemon cards
You've worn leggings and felt stylish.
You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare"
You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell".
Used to pretend to be a MIGHTY MORPHIN Power Ranger.
You had at least one GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere.
You watched the ORIGINAL Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Ninja Turtles
Yikes pencils and rubbers were the shit
You used to wear those stick on “earrings”, not only on your ears, but at the corners of your eyes.
You've gotten crept out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"
You know the Macarena by heart
Talk to the hand" ... enough said.
You thought Brain from 'Pinkey and the Brain' would finally take over the world.
You collected tazos
I'LL BE BACK!
Two words: SPICE GIRLS
You either were part of the “The Grunge Movement” (wearing flannel shirts open with a t-shirt beneath along with faded/torn jeans) or new someone who was.
Were obsessed with The Simpsons (when watching the Simpsons was an absolute must every week). Also, when Bart Simpson was considered dirty/controversial.
Beavis & Butt-head -- the show that made the Simpsons seem mild, and basically paved the way for even more dirty cartoons like South Park & Family Guy. Also led to a generation of children laughing like idiots.
You played/own/wanted Sega Genesis-Super Nintendo.
You know that “How Rude” comes from Stephanie- Full House
You know what a “trapper-keeper” is.
The music you own, were in cassette, either radio recorded or bought.
You remember by heart Alf, Flinstones , Jetsons, Vicky ,Steve Urkel among others.
You own a “Polly Pocket”
You constantly sang: “--- & --- sitting on a tree k-i-s-s-i-n-g…”
You cried when Mufasa died.
You loved your velcro tennis-shoes.
You didn’t understand the whole Y2K stuff.
The World Wide Web (in the sense that children in the 90's were the first to really grow up with it as a big part of their childhood)

karma.-

El joven discípulo de un filósofo sabio lo visita y le dice:
- Maestro, un amigo suyo estuvo hablando de usted con malevolencia.
- ¡Espera! lo interrumpe el filósofo ¿Ya hiciste pasar por las tres rejas lo que vas a contarme?
- ¿Las tres rejas?
- Si. La primera es la VERDAD. ¿Estás seguro de que lo que querés decirme es absolutamente cierto?
- No. Lo oí comentar a unos vecinos.
- Al menos lo habrás hecho pasar por le segunda reja, que es la BONDAD. ¿Es bueno para alguien lo que me vas a decir?
- No. en realidad no. Al contrario ...
- La última reja es la NECESIDAD ¿Es necesario hacerme saber lo que tanto te inquieta?
-A decir verdad, no.
- Entonces, dijo el sabio sonriendo, si no es VERDADERO, ni BUENO, ni NECESARIO, sepultémoslo en el olvido...


Muchos debiesemos aprender de esta historia.
Me incluyo claro esta porque muchas veces me he visto en una situacion parecida pero si nos detenemos y reflexionamos el sabio tiene toda la razon si no es VERDADERO,ni BUENO,ni NECESARIO para que comentarlo, para que atormentar a otros y a nosotros mismos con palabras insignificantes.
Siempre habra ese dia en que las cosas no saldran de la forma en que quieres y sientes que se te viene todo encima, que te han abandonado, inclusive Dios. Te pones de mal humor, dices cosas que no tienes que decir, y ahi comienza la cadena.
Tus acciones tendran sus reacciones, que dependiendo de la forma en que las hagas, ese sera el resultado que obtengas.
Ese dia comienzas a descargarte con todos que crees que son inferiores a ti, o que simplemente no tiene nada que ver contigo pero ese dia estaba en tu camino,y asi es como le transmites el mal humor a ellos, sigue la cadena, y si aquella persona "infectada" no se sabe controlar podria seguir causando muchos disgutos y traer malos recuerdos.
Despues de varias cadenas es donde nos quejamos, que porque las cosas no nos salen bien, que porque siempre a mi.
Sientes como al principio, que todo va de mal en peor, que nadie esta contigo,caes en depresion,dices cosas sin pensar, y todavia tienes el descaro de preguntar a ti mismo que por que pasan estas cosas.
Quizas no te des cuenta pero la respuesta es muy clara: las consecuencias de tus acciones
Todo lo que se hace se paga (its called karma) ya sea de una buena forma o de una mala forma, y como siempre empieza el ciclo una vez mas.
No seria mejor si te detuvieras un segundo a pensar antes de hablar o actuar?

aquella mirada...

Varias extensas conversaciones en esas tardes de cafe con excelentes amigas en las cuales conversamos de todo de la vida pero siempre terminamos en el tema que nunca falta, el sexo opuesto que nos gusta que no, anecdotas de relaciones entre otras cosas.
Una de esas tardes llegue a mi casa y reflexione sobre que realmente me gusta a mi del fisico de aquel ser el cual por mas que refutemos no podemos vivir sin su presencia.

Llegue a mi propia conclusion en la cual me di cuenta que para mi los ojos son el primer pero no unico rasgo físico que me llama la atención en una persona.
No es tanto el color o el tamaño, sino la forma de mirar. Me encantan aquellos ojos que te envuelven que traen consigo una chispa que es imposible definir pero que puedo reconocer cuando existe.
Me gusta esa sensacion que trae una nueva mirada aquella que cuando no conoces a alguien, mirar a los ojos puede suponer una intromisión en la intimidad de ese alguien, una mirada de frente,provocadora en incluso atrevida. Esas me encantan.

Pero si pasa el tiempo y se supone que hay confianza y aprecio, yo busco respuestas en los ojos de esa otra persona.
Necesito corroborar lo que me transmite con su lenguaje, mirándole a los ojos.
Sé que también se puede mentir con ellos, pero regularmente, suelo confiar en lo que me cuentan.
Es como la risa. Si sólo se ríe con la boca y no se ríe con los ojos, esa risa es más falsa que una moneda con mil caras.
Ahora, cuales son las mejores miradas?
Me gustan las miradas de los niños, tan ingenua.
La mirada de un reencuentro.
La mirada de un anciano, puedes descubrir muchas cosas tras esos parpados caidos.

Pero indiscutiblemente mis favoritas son las que compartes con la persona a la que quieres.
Te pierdes en sus ojos y no existe nada alrededor, sólo tú y él.
Esa mirada que te deja saber que has llegado a casa y se podria estar acabando el mundo, y ni te enteras...

que ilusa!

“Frecuentemente siento como si encontrara cerrada aquella puerta por la cual yo quería entrar.

Quizás no pasaron las cosas que quería, no se dio una relación o se presentó alguna otra situación que me obligó a cambiar de rumbo, salí mas tarde de lo que pensaba y me agarró uno de esos tampones, llovió aquel día que me puse los zapatos nuevos, me dio gripe el fin de semana que me iba para la playa, aquellas ironías de la vida....

No sé miles de cosas, irónicas o no, triviales o no, que me hacen pensar que estoy sola en el mundo o que todo conspira contra mí.
Pero que ilusa yo!

Hay momentos como éstos que se que cuando se cierra una puerta, es señal para mí de que en algún lugar se está abriendo otra, quizás más ancha y mejor, e incluso puede ser una pequeña ventana que Dios me dejó abierta y que por estar preocupándome por aquellas cosas sin importancia no me habia percatado en ella.
Ahora se que puedo encontrar felicidad y satisfacción pese a los cambios de planes.
Ahora se que el cambio usualmente me trae grandes oportunidades para lograr nuevas cosas y experimentar.
Ahora se que no puedo tener todas las respuestas, ni mucho menos pretender algun dia tenerlas.

Aprendí que siempre hay un arco iris después de cada una de mis tormentas,
Aprendí que no hay distancias largas si disfruto en el camino,y que al final, si me pongo a sacar cuentas, aquellas lágrimas vinieron tantas veces como las sonrisas!"

una sonrisa

Hace ya un buen tiempo recibí esto de una persona a la cual aprecio inmensamente, quizás para el o incluso para muchos nunca entiendan el porque estas palabras me cautivaron de tal manera. Como dice un refrán “No porque me veas reír pienses que de felicidad rebozo porque hasta los pájaros cantan aun cuando mueren de tristeza”

Gracias

P.D. y si es como dices que alegra vida pues te regalo la mejor de las sonrisas,aquella que es espontanea y viene de el corazon.

UNA SONRISA (TU SONRISA)

Una sonrisa es la expresión más sutil que brota de nuestra alma. La Sonrisa es el más saludable masaje de belleza para el rostro. Es el mejor antídoto para las preocupaciones. Es una clara manifestación de salud mental, emocional y espiritual.

Una sonrisa es el mejor regalo que una persona puede brindar. Es una caricia que brota del corazón.

¿Cuánto cuesta?
Nada
¿Cuánto beneficio nos puede dar?
Mucho.

Ahora… Tu sonrisa es como la estrella encendida que alegra al corazón, tu sonrisa tierna y dulce que alegra la vida. Tu sonrisa estremece el cielo, hace bailar a las estrellas, hace cantar a la luna y alegra al sol.

Sonríe siempre, para no dar a los que no te quieren el placer de verte triste, y para dar a los que te aman la certeza de que eres feliz.

Y Como dice la frase… “Cada sonrisa llena tu alma de alegrías y la libera de tristezas.”

reason,season,lifetime

When people come into your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong -doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real!
But only for a season.

When people come into your life for a LIFETIME they teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
LIFETIME people are also there for a REASON and a SEASON,
You are that kind of people.
For some random REASON you came into my life, and as I said before you assist me and provided me with guidance and support, you were also there on that specifically SEASON where I was evolving to the person I must turned out to be, through this season I saw you from another point of view, it wasn’t anymore for a reason, it was already turning to be a LIFETIME company, which I have proved that throughout time it has become better.
Not only have I grow next to you, I have also learned from you and in all this learning process I have become to realize that in my deepest dreams I had dream not of a friend like you, but you by my side.

Today I had a thought ... what if I'd never met you?
And then I started to think. I did, and it was certainly amazing,
*THANK YOU FOR BEING A PART OF MY LIFE*

nunca desistas de un sueño

Mientras vamos creciendo aprendemos que aquella persona que quizás nunca te iba a defraudar probablemente lo haga y en aquel momento te darás cuenta que solo cuentas contigo mismo.
Tendremos decepciones y desengaños en el amor, es muy probable que suframos y que hagamos sufrir, y mientras más nos tropezamos y volvamos a levantarnos mas duele.
Duele, porque uno no espera que las cosas salgan mal, al comienzo de alguna nueva relación donde todo es "color de rosa" y aquella sensación de felicidad que sientes cuando ves a esa persona se siente cada día aun mas, todo es perfecto, en ningún momento nos pasa por la cabeza pensar que todo va a terminar, ponemos todo nuestro empeño para que las cosas salgan bien, y si nos detenemos y pensamos no solo lo hacemos para complacer aquel ser sino porque queremos darnos la oportunidad de ser felices, porque queremos sentir eso que describen aquellos que están "enamorados" o creen estarlo.
Ahora pregunto, como saber si en verdad estamos enamorados?!
Honestamente, después de escuchar relatos de diferentes amigos y de leer aquellas famosas frases que describen al amor, ya ni se si lo he estado...
Será que hemos confundido el capricho con amor? o simplemente nos encerramos en el hecho de tener una compañía y creemos estar enamorados?, en realidad no lo se.

Incluso ahora que estoy en un punto donde no se nada empiezo a pensar que todo se trata de elecciones, todo es cuestión de elegir tu propia felicidad, hay aquellas relaciones que te enseñan cosas nuevas y descubres sentimientos ocultos, aquellas que ya son viejas y familiares, esas que traen consigo muchas preguntas y talvez pasajeras, otras que te llevan a lugares inesperados, algunas que te llevan lejos de donde comenzaste y quien sabe otra te trae de vuelta.
Pero, la más excitante, desafiante e inesperada es aquella que tienes contigo mismo y si algún día encontramos ese alguien que quiera al YO que tú quieres, es simplemente fabuloso.

Mientras caminamos por la vida viviendo cada momento y deseando algún día encontrar aquello que buscamos nunca esta de mas reír, bailar, disfrutar y aprovechar cada momento porque las cosas pasan cuando menos te las esperas
Y como dice aquel famoso autor,
Nunca desistas de un sueño. Sólo trata de ver las señales que te lleven a él....
Porque cuando quieres realmente una cosa, todo el universo conspira para ayudarte a conseguirla.

aquel cuento de hadas

Hace ya algunos años todo es distinto hace ya algunos años crecí o se puede decir, crecimos ya aquel cuento de hadas que teníamos dibujado a perfección en nuestra mente se a transformado ya no es lo mismo, aquellos pensamientos ingenuos que siempre invadían nuestras traviesas mentes han cambiado y ahora vemos las cosas de una manera diferente.
Recuerdo cuando era solo una niña y creía en los cuentos de hadas, como seria mi vida, el vestido blanco, el príncipe azul. Me sentaba en mi cama cada noche y tenia aquella fe de que algún día todo seria tal y como imaginaba, “Santa Claus” el “Ratoncito” y todos aquellos otros “amigos” en los cuales creía con los ojos cerrados los sentía tan cerca que los podía tocar.
Eventualmente crecemos, abrimos los ojos y tan rápido como un chasquido de dedos aquella fantasía desapareció.
Admito que crecemos y se que es posible pero honestamente nunca e conocido una persona que lo halla hecho. Sin aquellos padres a quien refutar, sin romper aquellas reglas que a veces nosotros mismo creamos.
Todavia hacemos rabietas cuando las cosas no salen tal y como esperamos, compartimos secretos con aquella amiga tan especial, buscamos seguridad donde podemos encontrarla y esperamos contra toda la lógica contra toda la experiencia esperamos por ese algo que suceda, porque es difícil realmente difícil abrir los ojos hacia la realidad y dejar ir aquella fantasía que día a día invade nuestros pensamientos.
Todos tenemos esa pizca de esperanza de fe de que algún día abriremos los ojos y vendrá.

,every little thing she does is magic!!*.-

God has blessed my life by surrounding it by the most amazing people ever, starting with my family and some other that are just more than friends,sisters [3M].
In this opportunity I wish to thank from the bottom of my heart for this words, a special person in my life one that doesnt need any introduction whatsoever,

MinNy,
I know I shouldn’t have waited this long to tell you this; perhaps write this. That I shouldn’t have waited to this obvious opportunity to show, because every single passing second is a perfect opportunity to tell you all that you mean to me.
I’m sorry that sometimes I’m too lazy to pick up the phone and call you to say hi and check in on you. I’m sorry that I never go out with you anymore. I’m sorry that I bitch at you every time we disagree on an idea; but most of all, I apologize for failing you in any way or possible form.
For me, you are everything that I’m missing and want to have. You push me all the way to the edges because you know that I can do so much better, but that I’m just so vague. You make me believe, have faith, be strong, don’t desist, keep my chin up and my forehead always looking forward, don’t fail to love, don’t give up, not be scared, and make everything feels alright and still believe in fait. I know that when I do something wrong or right, you are going to be there for me. I know that you are going to advice me, but still support me. I know that you are never going to let me hit rock bottom, and that if I fall you are going to be there before anyone else to catch me. I know you are going to try to stop me in most of my decisions, but still agree with me in the alternative I pick.
I know, that nothing else would have brought us together, but that one day we were having lunch almost by mistake and forced. I know that, I would never regret that day. And I know, that I should be so thankful to have not someone like you, but YOU specially in my life, because you are unique and solely you could understand my mind like you were a piece of my own.
We’ve been through everything. Through fights, distance, indecisions and as much as you can try to get. It is impossible that anything could possibly happen to us. If I’m not wrong, we have grown a bit apart lately, but still, I get excited every time we talk, or every time you text me, or any stupid little ting that we might do. I cannot deny I do miss you a lot.
Pero por lo menos se, que por mas años que pasen, por mas lejos que estemos, o mas cerca, que por mas cosas que yo haga o tu hagas, por mas que pueda pensar que te decepcionarías de mi o yo de ti; se que mi MiNnY!! Va a estar ahí. Que me va a decir cuanto me quiere, y que todo va a estar bien, que me va a entender, que me va a dar consejos, que me va a hacer sentir mejor.
Que me va a hacer sentir que todo vuelve a valer la pena.
Te quiero con todo el corazón, y espero que te sientas de la misma manera. Tú te mereces todo lo bueno en esta vida. El amor, el dinero, la felicidad, la salud, el bienestar, carcajadas, amistades, warmth, más todo lo que te complementa… y aun así, es poco para lo que te mereces.

“Existen momentos inolvidables, cosas inexplicables y personas incomparables…”

Recuerda siempre… que lo que importa no son los 6 o 7 años siendo mejores amigas ni conociéndonos desde los 7…no es sobre el tiempo…sino la intensidad con la que la hemos mantenido y la hemos vivido…hemos sabido como examinar cada pequeño pedacito de ella y la hemos aprovechado hasta mas no poder! Espero que sepas, que POR LO MENOS, vales mil y dos vueltas al mundo... ida y vuelta. Pero no es que crea que eres perfecta, pues no lo eres… pero como te quiero he aprendido a como creer verte a la perfección.


“la vida no se mide por las veces que respiras, pero por aquellos momentos que te dejan sin aliento…”

.....
iloviu EmMy,
ill be here for you no matter what, some will come and some will pass, but the ones that mean something, will ALWAYS last.
MinNy :)

shades of grey

Those who speak with me often or actually listen (lol) would know that I am currently obsess to this new TV Series call Grey’s Anatomy (which I sincerely thank my beloved friend Marua for it).
This new blog entry is because I wish to introduce you to this amazing little piece of world in which each episodes Meredith, Derek, George, Izzie and Alex (just to mention a few of my favorites) take us in Seattle Grace.

“Grey's Anatomy focuses on young people struggling to be doctors and doctors struggling to stay human. It's the drama and intensity of medical training mixed with the funny, sexy, painful lives of interns who are about to discover that neither medicine nor relationships can be defined in black and white. Real life only comes in shades of grey”

This so called “shades of grey” believe it or not have made me change through every season. Each chapter brings with it an amazing story that not only teaches you some medical terms and surgeon movements but it also makes you reflect about meanings of life and purposes.

As everything in life it all started with sex,
When a naïve intern moved aside “society principles” and slept with a renowned brain surgeon (also called, one night stand) not knowing that it will later lead to, what I call, the story of her life.

MEREDITH: [narrating] "Remember when you were a kid and your biggest worry was, like, if you'd get a bike for your birthday or if you'd get to eat cookies for breakfast. Being an adult? Totally overrated. I mean seriously, don't be fooled by all the hot shoes and the great sex and the no parents anywhere telling you what to do. Adulthood is responsibility. Responsibility, it really does suck. Really, really sucks. Adults have to be places and do things and earn a living and pay the rent. And if you're training to be a surgeon, holding a human heart in your hands, hello? Talk about responsibility. Kind of makes bikes and cookies look really, really good, doesn't it? The scariest part about responsibility? When you screw up and let it slip right through your fingers."

That’s the real Meredith.

As this “real Meredith” captures all my attention each Thursday night, and amazingly keeps me from falling asleep as I usually do, things that I believe in or even thought were different suddenly start to change.

Now I believe that each and every single one of us has a surgeon inside, because as surgeons ignore their needs to meet their patients need, we frequently find ourselves ignoring or stop doing things that we really want just to please others needs or request, we sometimes ignore our friends and even family’s just to assist others friends and family’s.
As surgeons we take as much of the good as we can get because as you must know in a E.R doesn’t come around nearly as often as it should, so we try to take the good from the bad and just seize the moment ,but good thing’s aren’t always what they seem. Too much of anything, even love, is not always a good thing.
Like surgeons we live our lives on the “surgical unit”, 7 days a week 14hr a day, that is it for them, for others it might be slightly different but in the end, you it comes part of your life.
Rules are quite simple, no.1: always keep score, no.2: do whatever you can to outsmart the other guy, no.3: don’t make friend with the enemy, and no.4: everything, everything, is a competition. Whoever said winning wasn’t everything… never held a scalper or in other cases a good contract.
If you think about it life is all about lines. The finish line at the end of residency, a promotion or even a presidency, waiting in line for a chance at the operating table, waiting a chance to express yourself in an important meeting, the line separating you from the people you work with, or people who work for you.
In any way, you need boundaries, between you and the rest of the world. Other people can get far too messy. It’s all about lines... drawing lines in the sand and praying like hell no one crosses them.

This is just only a few examples but I believe we could find tons that will try to explain us that deep inside we are like surgeons and Meredith would say

MEREDITH: "To be a good surgeon you have to think like a surgeon. Emotions are messy. Tuck them neatly away and step into a clean sterile room where the procedure is simple. Cut, suture, and close. But sometimes you’re faced with a cut that won’t heal. A cut that rips its stitches wide open. They say that practice makes perfect."

I agree.
Find out who you really are and go ahead, do it on purpose, but believe it, believe that you are really good it in, don’t get greedy, but outstand your own expectations. Take the risk and fall, but knowing always that you can handle that risk and when you are face to face with that “cut” that won’t heal open up and let it flow, learn from it.
“They say practice makes perfect”, now I’ll quote one of the most amazing people I’ve met, my dad, maybe he quoted some other guy, but who cares, at the end words are indeed made to be spread. He said: “not always you need to live certain things to learn from it, sometimes by stepping outside of the box, and stare you could also learn”

Now, take a minute and think.
Do you… see things in black and white or do you wish or actually see things in shades of grey?!

pouring my heart open

hablando con un buen amigo me pregunta el "dime que te gusta?, que no?" a lo que yo le respondo "honestamente para decirte que me gusta y que no tendria que decirte como soy y que pienso de mi, y d ahi tu sacas tus propias conclusiones" as i ussualy do i started to express, but this time was by writing,and i founded myself pouring my heart open....

- Shaula [3M]says: i am dorkAlicious.i love long walks.taking pictures and being in them is a hobbie. hot baths.love to look at the stars. little things make me laugh. its not hard to please me.it might take a while but, eventually, our bodies will betray our deepest secrets.i wear hats.love the moon.enjoy a good romantic dinner.im a free-spirit. want to be a good chef.im strong and determined.i identify myself with Dory. umhu Dory from finding nemo.i fall asleep watching tv. but i loove to go to the movies. im not a perfect girl. my hair doesnt always stay in place.im pretty clumsy and sometimes i have a broken heart. my sister and me sometimes fight. and maybe some days nothing goes right. i critizice when i want. old fashioned sometimes.smart.i eat when im bored.i fall for boys easily. im vulnerable to believing lies. i want to save.travel the world.im hoping that one day i wont need a fake smile.my body is not perfect.love to sail.im brunnet. have good manners and admire someone who does too. i live by quotes that explain exactly what i am going through. i daydream often.sometimes i make up excuses. i have best friends(and they Rock my world) and i believe enemies too. i have DRAMAS and MEMORIES. i like dancing in the rain.playing with my hair. TALKING and people say,that i do it tooo much, but if someday i actually start to matter please let me know. loove telling jokes.i love to sleep.KISSES.sometimes im sarcastic.i love the beach.and the sun.i believe in destiny.kids make me laugh.my dad is what i want in a man, my mom is what i wish to be.i dont want anything that is less than amazing to me.i believe we write our own stories.i ahte when people stare or even worst smell.i question everything.im kind to myself(sometimes) .i live for the moment.to loosen up i scream. i curse the world.i count my blessing .sometimes i am insecure.i just let it go and try to just be.sometimes, despite all your best intentions, fate wins anyway.i believ in God.my family is the most important thing in my world. i wanna run with the reckless emotion find out if love is the seize of an ocean and even if i crash and burn out, at least im gonna know what its like to be ALIVE. i dont settle for second best. i am not supersticious but i dont diss the juju from wherever it comes.i never lower my expectations.i dont waste kisses.music is the answer.i forgive.i keep secrets.im afraid to love.i still want to believe in fairy tales because like kids whe never give up hope.i never forget the good times. my favorite color is chocolate.theres no such thing as enough, the glass is bottomless, and all we want is more.
i live by: "some things dont last forever, so live it up, drink it down,laugh it off, avoid bullshiit,take chances,and never regrets,because at one point,everything you did was exactly what you wanted",and that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying.
en cuanto al amor.... i do my thing you do your thing. i am not in this world to live up to your expectations and you are not to live up to mine. you are you and i am i. and if by chance we found each other. its BEAUTIFUL. forget the risk and take the fall. if its meant to be then its worth it all.

....when i think about everything i am and take a step back i remember how amazing life truly is and that maybe . just maybe. i like being sorta unperfect! life is to short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right,forget about the ones who dont and believe that everything happens for a reaons. if you get a chance, take it. if it changes your life, let it. nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

p.d. thrill me, please me, surprise me,give me evertyhing i want and nothing i need, give me days i will remember and nights i wont forget.