aquel cuento de hadas

Hace ya algunos años todo es distinto hace ya algunos años crecí o se puede decir, crecimos ya aquel cuento de hadas que teníamos dibujado a perfección en nuestra mente se a transformado ya no es lo mismo, aquellos pensamientos ingenuos que siempre invadían nuestras traviesas mentes han cambiado y ahora vemos las cosas de una manera diferente.
Recuerdo cuando era solo una niña y creía en los cuentos de hadas, como seria mi vida, el vestido blanco, el príncipe azul. Me sentaba en mi cama cada noche y tenia aquella fe de que algún día todo seria tal y como imaginaba, “Santa Claus” el “Ratoncito” y todos aquellos otros “amigos” en los cuales creía con los ojos cerrados los sentía tan cerca que los podía tocar.
Eventualmente crecemos, abrimos los ojos y tan rápido como un chasquido de dedos aquella fantasía desapareció.
Admito que crecemos y se que es posible pero honestamente nunca e conocido una persona que lo halla hecho. Sin aquellos padres a quien refutar, sin romper aquellas reglas que a veces nosotros mismo creamos.
Todavia hacemos rabietas cuando las cosas no salen tal y como esperamos, compartimos secretos con aquella amiga tan especial, buscamos seguridad donde podemos encontrarla y esperamos contra toda la lógica contra toda la experiencia esperamos por ese algo que suceda, porque es difícil realmente difícil abrir los ojos hacia la realidad y dejar ir aquella fantasía que día a día invade nuestros pensamientos.
Todos tenemos esa pizca de esperanza de fe de que algún día abriremos los ojos y vendrá.

,every little thing she does is magic!!*.-

God has blessed my life by surrounding it by the most amazing people ever, starting with my family and some other that are just more than friends,sisters [3M].
In this opportunity I wish to thank from the bottom of my heart for this words, a special person in my life one that doesnt need any introduction whatsoever,

MinNy,
I know I shouldn’t have waited this long to tell you this; perhaps write this. That I shouldn’t have waited to this obvious opportunity to show, because every single passing second is a perfect opportunity to tell you all that you mean to me.
I’m sorry that sometimes I’m too lazy to pick up the phone and call you to say hi and check in on you. I’m sorry that I never go out with you anymore. I’m sorry that I bitch at you every time we disagree on an idea; but most of all, I apologize for failing you in any way or possible form.
For me, you are everything that I’m missing and want to have. You push me all the way to the edges because you know that I can do so much better, but that I’m just so vague. You make me believe, have faith, be strong, don’t desist, keep my chin up and my forehead always looking forward, don’t fail to love, don’t give up, not be scared, and make everything feels alright and still believe in fait. I know that when I do something wrong or right, you are going to be there for me. I know that you are going to advice me, but still support me. I know that you are never going to let me hit rock bottom, and that if I fall you are going to be there before anyone else to catch me. I know you are going to try to stop me in most of my decisions, but still agree with me in the alternative I pick.
I know, that nothing else would have brought us together, but that one day we were having lunch almost by mistake and forced. I know that, I would never regret that day. And I know, that I should be so thankful to have not someone like you, but YOU specially in my life, because you are unique and solely you could understand my mind like you were a piece of my own.
We’ve been through everything. Through fights, distance, indecisions and as much as you can try to get. It is impossible that anything could possibly happen to us. If I’m not wrong, we have grown a bit apart lately, but still, I get excited every time we talk, or every time you text me, or any stupid little ting that we might do. I cannot deny I do miss you a lot.
Pero por lo menos se, que por mas años que pasen, por mas lejos que estemos, o mas cerca, que por mas cosas que yo haga o tu hagas, por mas que pueda pensar que te decepcionarías de mi o yo de ti; se que mi MiNnY!! Va a estar ahí. Que me va a decir cuanto me quiere, y que todo va a estar bien, que me va a entender, que me va a dar consejos, que me va a hacer sentir mejor.
Que me va a hacer sentir que todo vuelve a valer la pena.
Te quiero con todo el corazón, y espero que te sientas de la misma manera. Tú te mereces todo lo bueno en esta vida. El amor, el dinero, la felicidad, la salud, el bienestar, carcajadas, amistades, warmth, más todo lo que te complementa… y aun así, es poco para lo que te mereces.

“Existen momentos inolvidables, cosas inexplicables y personas incomparables…”

Recuerda siempre… que lo que importa no son los 6 o 7 años siendo mejores amigas ni conociéndonos desde los 7…no es sobre el tiempo…sino la intensidad con la que la hemos mantenido y la hemos vivido…hemos sabido como examinar cada pequeño pedacito de ella y la hemos aprovechado hasta mas no poder! Espero que sepas, que POR LO MENOS, vales mil y dos vueltas al mundo... ida y vuelta. Pero no es que crea que eres perfecta, pues no lo eres… pero como te quiero he aprendido a como creer verte a la perfección.


“la vida no se mide por las veces que respiras, pero por aquellos momentos que te dejan sin aliento…”

.....
iloviu EmMy,
ill be here for you no matter what, some will come and some will pass, but the ones that mean something, will ALWAYS last.
MinNy :)

shades of grey

Those who speak with me often or actually listen (lol) would know that I am currently obsess to this new TV Series call Grey’s Anatomy (which I sincerely thank my beloved friend Marua for it).
This new blog entry is because I wish to introduce you to this amazing little piece of world in which each episodes Meredith, Derek, George, Izzie and Alex (just to mention a few of my favorites) take us in Seattle Grace.

“Grey's Anatomy focuses on young people struggling to be doctors and doctors struggling to stay human. It's the drama and intensity of medical training mixed with the funny, sexy, painful lives of interns who are about to discover that neither medicine nor relationships can be defined in black and white. Real life only comes in shades of grey”

This so called “shades of grey” believe it or not have made me change through every season. Each chapter brings with it an amazing story that not only teaches you some medical terms and surgeon movements but it also makes you reflect about meanings of life and purposes.

As everything in life it all started with sex,
When a naïve intern moved aside “society principles” and slept with a renowned brain surgeon (also called, one night stand) not knowing that it will later lead to, what I call, the story of her life.

MEREDITH: [narrating] "Remember when you were a kid and your biggest worry was, like, if you'd get a bike for your birthday or if you'd get to eat cookies for breakfast. Being an adult? Totally overrated. I mean seriously, don't be fooled by all the hot shoes and the great sex and the no parents anywhere telling you what to do. Adulthood is responsibility. Responsibility, it really does suck. Really, really sucks. Adults have to be places and do things and earn a living and pay the rent. And if you're training to be a surgeon, holding a human heart in your hands, hello? Talk about responsibility. Kind of makes bikes and cookies look really, really good, doesn't it? The scariest part about responsibility? When you screw up and let it slip right through your fingers."

That’s the real Meredith.

As this “real Meredith” captures all my attention each Thursday night, and amazingly keeps me from falling asleep as I usually do, things that I believe in or even thought were different suddenly start to change.

Now I believe that each and every single one of us has a surgeon inside, because as surgeons ignore their needs to meet their patients need, we frequently find ourselves ignoring or stop doing things that we really want just to please others needs or request, we sometimes ignore our friends and even family’s just to assist others friends and family’s.
As surgeons we take as much of the good as we can get because as you must know in a E.R doesn’t come around nearly as often as it should, so we try to take the good from the bad and just seize the moment ,but good thing’s aren’t always what they seem. Too much of anything, even love, is not always a good thing.
Like surgeons we live our lives on the “surgical unit”, 7 days a week 14hr a day, that is it for them, for others it might be slightly different but in the end, you it comes part of your life.
Rules are quite simple, no.1: always keep score, no.2: do whatever you can to outsmart the other guy, no.3: don’t make friend with the enemy, and no.4: everything, everything, is a competition. Whoever said winning wasn’t everything… never held a scalper or in other cases a good contract.
If you think about it life is all about lines. The finish line at the end of residency, a promotion or even a presidency, waiting in line for a chance at the operating table, waiting a chance to express yourself in an important meeting, the line separating you from the people you work with, or people who work for you.
In any way, you need boundaries, between you and the rest of the world. Other people can get far too messy. It’s all about lines... drawing lines in the sand and praying like hell no one crosses them.

This is just only a few examples but I believe we could find tons that will try to explain us that deep inside we are like surgeons and Meredith would say

MEREDITH: "To be a good surgeon you have to think like a surgeon. Emotions are messy. Tuck them neatly away and step into a clean sterile room where the procedure is simple. Cut, suture, and close. But sometimes you’re faced with a cut that won’t heal. A cut that rips its stitches wide open. They say that practice makes perfect."

I agree.
Find out who you really are and go ahead, do it on purpose, but believe it, believe that you are really good it in, don’t get greedy, but outstand your own expectations. Take the risk and fall, but knowing always that you can handle that risk and when you are face to face with that “cut” that won’t heal open up and let it flow, learn from it.
“They say practice makes perfect”, now I’ll quote one of the most amazing people I’ve met, my dad, maybe he quoted some other guy, but who cares, at the end words are indeed made to be spread. He said: “not always you need to live certain things to learn from it, sometimes by stepping outside of the box, and stare you could also learn”

Now, take a minute and think.
Do you… see things in black and white or do you wish or actually see things in shades of grey?!

pouring my heart open

hablando con un buen amigo me pregunta el "dime que te gusta?, que no?" a lo que yo le respondo "honestamente para decirte que me gusta y que no tendria que decirte como soy y que pienso de mi, y d ahi tu sacas tus propias conclusiones" as i ussualy do i started to express, but this time was by writing,and i founded myself pouring my heart open....

- Shaula [3M]says: i am dorkAlicious.i love long walks.taking pictures and being in them is a hobbie. hot baths.love to look at the stars. little things make me laugh. its not hard to please me.it might take a while but, eventually, our bodies will betray our deepest secrets.i wear hats.love the moon.enjoy a good romantic dinner.im a free-spirit. want to be a good chef.im strong and determined.i identify myself with Dory. umhu Dory from finding nemo.i fall asleep watching tv. but i loove to go to the movies. im not a perfect girl. my hair doesnt always stay in place.im pretty clumsy and sometimes i have a broken heart. my sister and me sometimes fight. and maybe some days nothing goes right. i critizice when i want. old fashioned sometimes.smart.i eat when im bored.i fall for boys easily. im vulnerable to believing lies. i want to save.travel the world.im hoping that one day i wont need a fake smile.my body is not perfect.love to sail.im brunnet. have good manners and admire someone who does too. i live by quotes that explain exactly what i am going through. i daydream often.sometimes i make up excuses. i have best friends(and they Rock my world) and i believe enemies too. i have DRAMAS and MEMORIES. i like dancing in the rain.playing with my hair. TALKING and people say,that i do it tooo much, but if someday i actually start to matter please let me know. loove telling jokes.i love to sleep.KISSES.sometimes im sarcastic.i love the beach.and the sun.i believe in destiny.kids make me laugh.my dad is what i want in a man, my mom is what i wish to be.i dont want anything that is less than amazing to me.i believe we write our own stories.i ahte when people stare or even worst smell.i question everything.im kind to myself(sometimes) .i live for the moment.to loosen up i scream. i curse the world.i count my blessing .sometimes i am insecure.i just let it go and try to just be.sometimes, despite all your best intentions, fate wins anyway.i believ in God.my family is the most important thing in my world. i wanna run with the reckless emotion find out if love is the seize of an ocean and even if i crash and burn out, at least im gonna know what its like to be ALIVE. i dont settle for second best. i am not supersticious but i dont diss the juju from wherever it comes.i never lower my expectations.i dont waste kisses.music is the answer.i forgive.i keep secrets.im afraid to love.i still want to believe in fairy tales because like kids whe never give up hope.i never forget the good times. my favorite color is chocolate.theres no such thing as enough, the glass is bottomless, and all we want is more.
i live by: "some things dont last forever, so live it up, drink it down,laugh it off, avoid bullshiit,take chances,and never regrets,because at one point,everything you did was exactly what you wanted",and that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying.
en cuanto al amor.... i do my thing you do your thing. i am not in this world to live up to your expectations and you are not to live up to mine. you are you and i am i. and if by chance we found each other. its BEAUTIFUL. forget the risk and take the fall. if its meant to be then its worth it all.

....when i think about everything i am and take a step back i remember how amazing life truly is and that maybe . just maybe. i like being sorta unperfect! life is to short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right,forget about the ones who dont and believe that everything happens for a reaons. if you get a chance, take it. if it changes your life, let it. nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

p.d. thrill me, please me, surprise me,give me evertyhing i want and nothing i need, give me days i will remember and nights i wont forget.